The balloon pops; the party is over, Happy Birthday to me and then a sing-songy, bittersweet ending to my 20’s. Yep, turning 30 and I have considered being like Joey in Friends and shouting “WHY GOD, WHY?!”. However, I also see all the fun memories I have made and the mistakes I had wished I hadn’t and I begin to look forward to my 30’s and what is to come.
I see my past 10 years as so much growth and change in my years on this earth. I went to college, graduated with a masters, got married, had two beautiful children, traveled, moved a few times, and bought my first home. I am a very lucky person and I cannot believe I had done that much in a short period of time. I am thankful for my friends and family around me who helped me reach my goals, saw my potential, and guided me through this thing we call life.
As I work through those memories and into the future I do have to look back at my 20’s and just be sad. There is so much that I want to do, but so much that has already been done. I can check things off my bucket list but at the same time wish I would have accomplished more. There is always a quest for more, always a feign hope to go back in time whether it is to change things or relive them.
I know I’ll feel this way at other new milestones in my life. But the richness of my 30s will be the love I share with my kids as they grow and learn, loving my husband and the adventures we have together and learning to love myself.